The other night I got lost in an internet black hole. But rather that someone else's blog or website, I started clicking through my blog and reading back words that I written a few months ago, a year ago, two years ago.
And I was struck by how much this little blog of mine has changed. How much I have changed.
I was at a wedding this past Saturday nigh and the maid of honor gave a beautiful speech -- one that is still in my mind -- the words rolling around in my head at moments.
She read from a book, which I can't remember unfortunately, and talked about how we at one age are all of our ages. At age 10, we're age 9, 8, 7 and so on. At age 30, we can still feel moments of age 15 or age 3. She spoke to the bride and groom, saying that she could see their future 80-year-old-selves and how at the moment they would remember this moment, the moment of their wedding, when they were 26 and 27.
I look myself this way-- that there are moments of me being 5 and age 8, and sometimes I see glimpses of the future-- where I'm 50 or 74. All of these seperate moments join to create me, someone who is always changing and as I write this blog, the blog is changing too.
I started blogging when I was first married at a space that no longer exists anymore. And somehow it transferred over year and I started posting outfits, and less DIYs and more and recipes because apparently I'm a little bit of a foodie. And I never mentioned exercise, but now I can't imagine my life without running. Once upon a time there was the blog and a little shop and now the shop feels big and the blog feels little.
And I'm not sure where I'm going with this blog anymore than I can guess who I'll be next year or the year after. I know that there will still be bits of my blog past in the future blog. There may be more running or less running and maybe more recipes or less fashion posts but who's to say.
I'm just thankful for those of you who are here and reading and listening to my rambles. You're all pretty special to me.
hat: thrifted (i like this one, though)
tank: anthropologie (forevers ago) similar