The world's just spinning
A little too fast
If things don't slow down soon we might not last
So just for the moment, let's be still
- Let's Be Still, Head and The Heart (listen here)
I am not a still person. I am probably the opposite, actually.
In fact, one of things that the husband and I argue over is when I "stomp" around the house right when I get home from work. He tells me it's wrong that I enter the house in such a whirlwind of activity. He tells me he feels guilty when he sits and I'm rushing around.
I tell him that it's just the way I am. I move fast. I don't sit. He doesn't need to feel guilty. I am just an antsy person. I can't help it, I tell him. My family teases me because the thing I say most is "real fast." As in, "I'll do that real fast."
But if I am honest with myself, I know these are just excuses for bad habits: My bad habits of rushing things and rushing people as well as my bad habits of half-thought-out ideas and distracted movements.
The real reason I run for exercise? I can't handle other exercise that's slow and deliberate. (I'm looking at you, Pilates.)
Another confession. I've never made risotto because the thought of standing at the stove and stirring for 40 minutes seems downright impossible.
So when I hear a song like "Let's Be Still," it's a challenge for me. It's a rallying cry for me to be quiet and be present. I had it on, background music in my headphones, and it felt like this push-- this motion for me to rest, to be still.
I want to learn to be still so I can be present in my moments, with what is in front of me. I want to be still in front of God. I want to be still with others.
Even if it is, just for a moment.
Are you a crazed rush of activity like me? Or are you better at carving out space to be still? If you are-- please teach me your ways.
p.s. if you are not familiar with the band "The Head and the Heart" you very much should be. Their music is excellent and I lived with one of the bandmembers in college.