It's strange to me
that just a few short months ago I was wearing this skirt with a sleeveless blouse. Today, it's layered with tights and a scarf and a coat topped over that.
It's funny, really, how quickly things change in a few months. Weather can change, people can change, circumstances can change.
To be honest, I'm not good at change. I used to cry at the end of the school year in elementary school because I knew the next school year things would be different-- a different teacher, a different classroom and at that point I couldn't imagine it being different. I didn't want it different.
I had a hard time graduating college, a hard time transitioning into my first big-girl job with no summers off and a hard time figuring out what it meant to go from dating to being married.
Each fall, I relish the changing leaves and the cooler temperatures, but at the same time, a little part of me fights against this inevitable change, the transition from summer to a new and different season.
It's funny looking at my life right now in this moment because I feel like I've found my rhythm- - my comfortable place. I know my responsibilities at work. I've been married for four years and I kind of get the Etsy shop thing (
kind of).
And a big part of me has started to get a little scared because if life has taught me anything, the moment you think you know what's going on is the moment you are going to realize that you don't know anything at all. Just as the weather can instantly change, from one October weekend to the next, I fear that my spot in life can completely turn on its head.
But I know, deep down, that change is good. Just as the leaves are required to fall, as it's good to have a cooler season. Change in life is natural; it's not good to stand still.
I believe that God doesn't want us to become comfortable. The moment we become too comfortable is the moment we don't see opportunities in front of us. We don't see the possibility of a new friend, we don't see the time to leave an old job or start a new one. We are blinded by our obsession to staying comfortable,
right where we are, because change-- the possibility of the unknown -- is scary.
We weren't designed to be sedentary and comfortable, with everything just laid out in front of us. We are made to be living life to the fullest in every moment-- changing, growing.
Change is good. I'm telling myself this. It stretches us, makes us better.
In this moment of being too comfortable -- of feeling like I know everything that I am supposed to know -- I am trying to embrace the possibility of change. I am trying to look to God to see where I should go, what I should be open to. I am trying not to be afraid of the possibility of things not always being exactly where they are. Because change is good.
Deep thoughts based on wearing tights with a skirt, right? You probably just expected comments on mixing and matching. Next time, I promise. ;)
xo, erika
wear:
skirt: hand-me-down from a friend
top: Forever 21
scarf: gift from Mom
tights: Target?
heels: Steve Madden via TJ Maxx